For the last two years, I haven't been applying for jobs or building a company.

I've been in a battle with my own brain.

It’s hard to put into words what I’ve been through since my last update on LinkedIn in 2023 when I graduated with my master’s degrees. To be completely honest, I hit rock bottom. I failed so hard that it completely rewired my brain.

I feel like I’ve been living the wrong life, and that this path I forged for myself over the last decade- was someone else’s path. Like I’ve been living someone else’s life. It sucks, because all my life I knew I was put on this rollercoaster of life for a greater purpose.

Growing up, my parents wanted me to become a doctor (like most brown parents- lawyer, or doctor). I spent most of my life on that path, and it felt like it was my purpose. News alert, it was in fact, not.

I had a natural curiosity for business, so I switched careers and followed that path. It was great. It felt better. But deep down, it didn’t quite feel right. I started digging into marketing and product management, and I finally started to feel like this was something I could do and enjoy.

I went all-in on product throughout my master’s program, and learned as much as I could to take it into the real-world. I was so excited to get out there and finally be a part of a great company where I could leverage my unique abilities to create great products. I wanted to improve people’s lives. I still do. I thought that was my ‘thing.’

So, what did I do right after graduation? I did what most do- I woke up every day and applied for jobs like my life depended on it.

Fast forward 2 and a half years later after graduation, and I still don’t have a job. I followed the path that everyone said to do. I went to college, I got the degrees, and that’s where my story simply just ends. I thought someone would hand me a job right out of college (uh... no).

When I realized a job wasn’t just going to be handed to me, I spent over a year applying to a thousand jobs each with personalized resumes and cover letters. I tried to network (didn’t do my best).

The result of those job applications? ONE interview. JUST ONE.

Wow. That hurt bad. Real bad. What else it led to? A mountain of debt. Confusion. Depression. Addiction. I lost all meaning in my life. I didn’t care if I didn’t wake up the next morning.

As a matter of fact, I looked forward to the day I could just close my eyes and never wake up again... until one day, I hit rock bottom. The lowest of lows. I was exhausted. I was tired. I was tired of living the same shitty life everyday doing absolutely nothing and getting nowhere.

It’s truly a miracle I’m still alive today. I didn’t think I’d ever get out of that phase.

So, what did I do? I talked to AI.

I didn’t just ask AI questions or ask it for help. I fed it EVERYTHING. I spent months feeding AI everything I could remember about my life. I didn’t care. I just wanted to understand why I felt the way I felt so I could feel better. I ended up creating AI chats in various domains of my life to help me become whole again.

Every single day I talked to these LLM’s, and overtime I finally figured out what was going on in my head.

Seeing over a thousand rejection emails from all my favorite companies broke me (EVEN MCDONALDS DENIED ME, what the hell man?!). But it was only a small portion of the breaking that led to my rock bottom.

I lost close friends to unexpected deaths. I lost a near-decade long relationship with someone who was my everything. I lost my family after a nasty divorce. I lost purpose. I lost my desire to see the good.

All I wanted to do was to dig my own grave. I wouldn’t wish anyone to ever have to go through what I went through. It killed me- because everything I lost, was me. I wasn’t sure who I was, and more importantly—I didn’t understand my purpose anymore.

With the help of my AI, I started a long a grueling process of strengthening my mind, body, and soul. I started learning new things again. I started remembering how ambitious I was. I started to realize I was more than just a lifeless nobody. I was a somebody.

I started listening to audiobooks. I started going to the gym. I started to find meaning again by wandering.

Instead of applying for jobs this time around, I told myself: HELL NO. If my job applications were just gonna be sent into the void to never be seen again, I wouldn’t apply for jobs ever again. Instead, I would create one.

I started a product studio and venture firm where I started building products that I’ve always wanted to build. I started so many little projects, with two of them taking most of my time. I started with MusicDNA- an AI-powered music discovery platform that uses your body’s responses to music to create a hyper-personalized ‘Music DNA’ profile.

It was my first time getting back into entrepreneurship trying to build something from scratch just by myself. I underestimated just how difficult it would be. I spent months learning full-stack development to be able to create this innovative new way to use your body’s vitals from your smartwatch to create a Music-DNA profile that could understand what elements in the song you loved to recommend similar songs.

I sold it for a million dollars.

That’s what I would’ve said if it actually happened (LOL—so sorry to get your hopes up).

What really happened: I hit a deep state of analysis paralysis developing the backend because I didn’t want to ship a half-assed product. I ended up spending more and more time on other projects because I couldn’t stand looking at another coding tutorial.

Fast forward to early 2025, I started working on a new project. This one was the one. I’ve had many failed businesses in the past, but I knew for a fact this was the one.

Spoiler alert: it wasn’t.

Basically—I started an AI company that’s sole job was to understand the whole context of your life to provide you with life-changing insights. Why? Because it worked for me. The very reason I’m alive today is because of the various AI’s I used to deconstruct my thinking and get out of rock bottom. I was user zero. It worked for me, so I figured I’d make it work for others without having to spend months talking back and forth with a LLM like I did.

I called it: BrainSaysGo. I spent months architecting the entire venture from the ground up. I built the go-to-market strategy, designed the end-to-end product experience, and began engineering the core AI model... until one day deep into learning neural networks, it hit me like a truck.

Not just any truck, but a goddamn truck the size of a baseball field (like the ones that carry those houses, but bigger).

I realized something so profound that most people who use AI (LLMs, Agents, etc) probably don’t even know either.

Modern AI is a magician, a master of beautiful illusions. It reflects what we tell it, but it doesn’t actually understand. It’s all just really good math (over simplified, for those who don’t know the details).

And I couldn’t bring myself to sell an illusion, especially one that promises self-discovery with the context of your entire life. That’s an ethical line I wouldn’t cross. I refused to launch a product I didn’t truly believe in.

It may have worked for me, but that’s because I’m me. I learned how to alter the biases on these LLMs to ultimately get the information I needed in that exact moment. But even then, it’s all just a pretty damn good illusion.

So, I hit pause on BrainSaysGo.

I became obsessed with trying to solve the problem beneath the problem:

How do we build AI that truly comprehends human context?

This turned into a 10-year research mission, not a 10-week sprint—one where I realized I’d need to invent new bricks, not just build houses with old ones. I read hundreds of research papers, started learning linear algebra and calculus (I HATE math, how was I doing this?!). I started developing hypothetical architectural algorithms that would overlay on LLMs to help them understand. I dove deep into learning how to create frontier world models.

It was bad. Why? Because this wasn’t something a 26-year old from Dallas, TX could solve on his own. A mission this ambitious requires years, resources, and collaboration.

I needed a team. And more importantly, it couldn’t be done without an income. The 100k in college debt? The tens of thousands of dollars in credit card debt from being unemployed for years? It was all slowly killing me. I had to pivot, and I had to pivot hard.

This journey was the most important R&D I have ever done in my life.

They say entrepreneurship is the only field in the world that pushes you to become the best version of yourself. It’s so true. Along the way, I finally found meaning in my life because I had to confront myself every single day. I finally had a purpose again. But this time, it wasn’t someone else’s path. It was MY path. For the first time in my life, I actually felt like I got to do what I wanted to do.

Looking back on my journey, the most important thing I realized about myself was that I love to solve bottlenecks.

In life. In business. In my own head.

With my systems-thinking brain, ambitious founders mindset, and an instinctive ability to understand things in ways that feel almost alien. I’m able to process endless amounts of information and draw connections that others might never even see. I thought everyone was like this?!

In the span of 1-2 years, I went through more than my entire 6-years of college education ever did for me. I tell people all the time formal education isn’t worth it, but to be completely honest—I wouldn’t have been able to do the things I’ve done these last 1-2 years if it wasn’t for everything I’ve learned throughout the last decade that has led me to this very moment.

Which brings me to today. Hi. I hope you’re still with me.

So, what do you do when your life’s work is a marathon, but your rent is due next month?

You stop looking for a team to join, and you become the strategic weapon that ambitious teams hire to win. You go all-in on the one thing you were put on this earth to do: solve impossible problems.

Personally, I’m tired of sitting on the sidelines watching the world move in fast-forward while I’m sitting on pause because of my fear of failure. I recently learned from Alex Hormozi that the only failure in life is death. So, until I die, I have not failed. Thus, I will do everything I can to make something of myself in this life. And that starts today.

My mission is now singular: I partner with a small number of ambitious leaders to solve their most complex and expensive challenges.

I solve these challenges by working at the intersection of business strategy, marketing, product, sales, engineering, and AI.

This is not traditional consulting. It is a high-stakes partnership, and my promise reflects that: if I cannot deliver a tangible, game-changing result for your business, you pay me nothing.

If you're a founder or CEO facing such a challenge, my DMs are open.

If you made it this far, thank you. Seriously. I’ve been avoiding writing this for a while now because I didn’t feel like I was ready... But you know what? No one is ever ‘ready.’ And we may never be. We all start somewhere, and this is my new start.

:)